7.3.05
jus cant slp...
hey...难得 im blogging 2 days in a row...
hmz..dunno y....isomnia..(is tis hw u spell it..??) has came back to hunt me...jus cant slp in da nite..its already going to be 3am in da morning n im still here blogging..haha..
lotsa tings been going thru my mind recently..especially wat am i going to do after i grad...always tot i had da plan..ready to be executed..but who knows..im still holding someting back tat till nt..i dunno wat is it...
da moment i close my eyes lying on my bed..questions will start to pour in...wat im i going to do..y aint i studying hard...y cant is my life like tis...?? where is all da time i used to have..where r all da times tat i use to spend..?? sat to me nw is jus resting at home...tats all i wanna do..unlike last time..use to like spending my wkends to da fullest..nt "wasting" time by staying at home n do nuting...use to haf no choice but to stay at home..nw i wish i can jus stay at home n do nuting..crazy gal u mite tink..perhaps sometings r jus meant to be tat way...
hmz..dunno wat im talking abt le....tink im going back to my vampire movie le..haha..lucky made sis to share da vcds wif me..if nt i really dunno wat to do le...oh ya..manage to catch da last part to moulin rouge jus nw...1 of my favs movie..coz got ewan mcgregor..hehe...n i really like tat story...super meaningful..n maybe coz of da tings tat happened when i watched tat show...love da songs in there too...still got da soundtrack wif me...hmz....
yest or rather da day b4..1 of my frenz ask me...iszit becoz u cant forget da past...? or rather am i still holding on to it...? gd question...i told him tat i had already let it go...n i do..i can accept another relationship...but there aint any tat im able to..or rather da feelings is nt there...da msg shldnt had came to me...da 1 b4 christmas...da 1 tat made me tink...tat 1 tat made me realise...perhaps...deep inside me..i do hope tat we still got a chance...?? which i do hope nt..as i jus wanna start afresh..?? reality is...i guess nt...we do nt haf 1.......jus hope tat u r happy rite nw...=)
wat is past...is over.....ciaoz...
Posted by dotsux at 3/07/2005 02:47:00 am